Hero with the Head of Medusa
Max Graham
If I am told how to wear my skin
I will shed it
I will find seams in my femininity and pluck at them with my too-short fingernails until it falls at
my feet without a sound
I will run away
and I will not say goodbye to you
I will make the arrangements
I will go somewhere far from the molt of the accursed one on my bathroom floor
far from the scaly flesh that binds my tongue to the inside of my throat as I am bracing myself
for the Harpe of Perseus
you can take my beauty
I don’t want it anymore
For fear I could end up like Daphne
who became a laurel tree to escape the lust of the hero
and then forever the leaves that decorate the heads of them
I will be the thing with snakes for hair
and curse you just as I was
I will start fires from olive branches and burn the place where the hero and the rapist have the
same face
I don’t want to be a woman anymore
and when you, through blood and tears, had the callousness to say “does that feel good”
I don’t want to be a person anymore
When you kill me, I will watch as my unholy spirit
drifts some place far from you
I will trade this soul for another
without the curse of being remembered as a thing that you used once and then threw away
And if I don’t get my wish
I will be the stone
The thing that cannot be made bloody by your greedy flesh
Max Graham often returns to feminine rage in their poetry, responding to the pain of stage four endometriosis and the complex relationship with being born female. Their jumping spider Sarah sits in an enclosure surrounded by tiny, hand-made pottery.